Lyrics

01 — Too Many Voices at Once

I wake up tired Of my own head Too many thoughts None of them finished Same questions Different volume I move things around Like that might help Like order could quiet What never asked for silence Every option sounds serious None of them feel solid I try to listen But everything talks I try to breathe But the noise keeps time Too many voices at once I hold myself together Out of routine Not strength Just practice I don’t fall apart I tense I’m trying to choose Without a clear choice Trying to move With no sense of direction Everything points somewhere Nothing says forward Too many voices at once I stay Not because I’m calm Because leaving Would be louder

02 — Weight I Learned to Carry

I used to think letting go Was the only kind of strength Like if I dropped everything I’d finally feel lighter But some things don’t fall They stay I tried to rename the past Call it distance, call it growth But it still shows up in my posture In the way I walk into rooms Expecting something to break This isn’t a burden It just feels like one Because I’m still learning How to stand with it Some weight doesn’t pull you down It keeps you from floating away I stopped asking how to erase it Started asking how to hold it Without tightening my chest Without turning it into anger I’m not lighter I’m steadier If I’m slower now It’s not because I’m weak It’s because I’m carrying Everything I didn’t abandon And I’m still here

03 — Nowhere Feels Like Forward

I keep moving things around Like that might change the outcome Same room Different corners Nothing feels like forward I make lists I break them I start sentences I don’t finish Every option sounds responsible None of them sound like me I thought momentum would feel louder I thought choice would feel clearer But everything just feels Sideways I’m not stuck I’m just not arriving Some days I call this patience Some days I call it fear Both words fit Depending on the hour Nowhere feels like forward Just farther from where I was And I don’t know If that’s progress Or just distance I keep telling myself This is part of it That uncertainty means I’m close But close to what? Nowhere feels like forward Nowhere feels like forward I’ll keep walking Not because I see the way But because stopping Feels worse

04 — I’m Not Calm, I’m Contained

I answer slower now Not because I’m careful Because everything inside me Wants to answer at once I keep my tone even Like that proves something Like control means peace If no one hears the friction I feel the heat in small places Jaw, shoulders, hands It doesn’t ask permission It just waits I don’t react I store People say I’ve changed I guess that’s true I’ve learned where to stop myself Mid-sentence Mid-thought Mid-feeling This isn’t calm It’s compression I don’t breathe deeper I breathe narrower Enough to stay upright Enough to not spill I don’t need to shout To feel how loud this is Every pause is work Every answer costs I’m not calm I’m contained Some nights I loosen the grip Just to see what happens Nothing breaks But nothing rests So I hold again If this looks like balance From the outside Let it I know the difference Between holding steady And holding everything

05 — Maybe This Is Enough

I don’t feel better I just feel quieter Like the noise stepped back Enough for me to stand I stopped asking When this would end Started asking What I can hold today Some days I move Some days I wait Both take more effort Than they should I used to measure progress By distance Now I measure it By how long I stay There’s no relief Just less resistance No clear answers Just fewer lies I’m not fixed I’m not lost I’m somewhere Still breathing Maybe this is enough Not forever Just for now Enough to wake up Enough to answer Enough to not disappear I don’t need clarity I need continuity I don’t need strength I need margin If tomorrow asks more I’ll answer then Tonight This is enough

06 — Coda (Unfinished) (instrumental)